its been such a long time since my last entry so i think i have to try and write a little something just to keep in practice. =) . the whole purpose of my blog was therapy for the difficult emotional times that i experienced last october. being a guy, and a thuggish guy at that, i had no one to talk to about some problems i had. so i thought that if i put down my thoughts in print, its a good way of releasing what i had inside of me. online no one knows who i am or what i look like. i can be totally anonymous. i think the biggest mistake i made was letting some people who were close to me be aware that i actually kept up a blog. that kinda backfired in such a way cause i found i had to censor myself. thankfully those days are now gone. i've pretty much alienated myself from everyone close to me so can pretty much write what is on my mind again. now that i am free to write.. i find that i have nothing to write about! lol on me. hahahaha. even though i have alot of crap on my mind.. life has been pretty good for me. the only gripes i have is my insomnia. i have been stressing alot about cash and i have 2 pretty fawked up cars that has been continuously a money drain on me. i need to hurry up and fix my street racer so that i can sell the piece of crap truck i'm driving around. last week i actually had a mexican guy wanting to buy it off from me! i can't sell it yet cause the street racer isnt road ready. between the cars and my upcoming relocation to cali.. i am majorly stressed. right now i have a good job with decent wages but am wanting to relocate to a larger city which might enable me to get a good job for my special friend. i would go into details but would rather not at this time. *winks*. even with all of the stress and lack of sleep (been sleeping about 2 - 4 hours nightly), i am still fairly happy. i know that i am loved and i know that i love. thats the thing that has been keeping me going these many months.
i think i've written enough so am gonna end it on a positive note. just keep the faith in something, be it in religion or love. have a wonderful day everyone and stay safe.
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