i watched 2 fairly violent japanese movies tonight, "battle royale" and "battle royale 2". intermixed with all of the senseless carnage was an underlying message of partners/friends til the end and love. partners who sticks it through until the end, no matter the consequences. all during the movie i couldn't help myself from thinking of you. am i strong enough to see it through to the end? i promised to stick by your side and to protect you. can u sleep in a bed which is not your own and among strangers? what are you thinking about as you lie there all alone? how i miss you already. how i still always worry about you. how i wish i could be there with you to take all of your fears away.

 i want to go to sleep now so that we can be together in my dreams. good night my love.