well happy moday morning to everyone. hahaha... trying to motivate myself i guess. was up all bloody night playing the new ps2 games i bought. serves me right, huh? it was like 2 AM that i said to myself i need to do something, so popped a couple of sleeping pills. wow... big mistake cause i didnt wanna get up at 6:30. forealz i am NOT a morning person. trying to reflect back on the weekend. all and all a pretty ineresting one. i did zero studying. damn... gotta put my nose to the grindstone.

 so alexandra never even gave me an email. wassup with that? guess she's too busy partying out this weekend also. sigh.... soooo sooo disappointed.

 no dreams last night, which is a good thing. still thoughts in my head, which is a bad thing. wish i can put it out of my head but i cant. that poem i said that was trying to come out yesterday...i waited too long so i lost the feeling. poems for me have to come from what i'm feeling at the moment. u can't really just force urself and try to write one. u gotta be feeling it. oh yeah... was up late looking for tattoos. decided to go with a traditional japanese one. there was one that i particulary liked. it started from the upper right chest, winds over the right shoulder and arm, and ends on your upper right back. its of a traditional japanese style dragon. they had some depicting japanese gods that was pretty interesting also. i think i need something else under it on my right arm also. maybe some kind of kanji (japanese characters).

 forealz my mind and my heart is covered by a heavy fog and i can't think straight right now. things i wanna say but i don't wanna be sounding all whiney. read around some other peeps blogs and i guess there are lots of us out there that's in a pretty bad way.

hey its only life so we gotta try and get thru this fog as best as we can.

peace out.