hey world, wassup!!!
hahaha, i'm writing this thursday nite about 8:20 pm. just had 4 really large cups of red bull and vodka and i'm really drunk right now. ir quite rare for me to be this drunk by myself so i'm gonna take the opportunity and try to document everything i did and am about to do. lets see.... umm... had a choice between watching the 5:30 nationwide news or copy dvd's. decided to fawk the news and copy dvd's. i really don't care about wuts going on in the world right now. had some pretty cool foreign dvs come in from netflix. netflix used to be cool but i guess they're finally on to me and decided to send me 3 dvd every week and a half now. u see.. as soon as a dvd comes in i would copy them and then send them right back to get 3 new ones. they probably finally realized what i was doing so started sending me replacements every 10 days. i will never admit that i was a computer nerd but i just like doing things that are a little on the shady side. well only when it comes to downloading movies, music, and copying dvd's. my old yahoo sn used to be asianbadboy4ever. i had to give it up to prove to my ex that i no longer chatted. damn i miss that sn. i had it for 5 years. it really showed my true essence. well tonite i called every single chick that i knew. lol on me cause no one was home or else they changed their number. i'm sure some of them will say "who the f*ck was that, that called me" its been awhile since i called some of them. i finally got lucky when a black chick that used to work with me answered the phone. she's black and got a ghetto booty. we used to smoke weed together. by that time i had about 6 large cups of redbull and vodka and was really pretty drunk. she even said i prolly called her cause i was drunk. hahaha.. i'm really quite charming when i'm drunk and sweet talked to her for like 30 mins. she said she was gonna call me back @ 9:00 when her minutes kick in and her little boy was sleeping. lolz... i turned on all the charm i could muster. i told her if she doesn't call me back that i'm gonna call her. (i know where she lives cause i used to give her a ride home). no worries... i aint a stalker.... yet. lolz. lolz on me cause i even called crystal. puahahaha. first time i ever mentioned her name in my blog. really big step for me. she prolly thinks that she didn't mean anything to me. i musta been like the best actor in the world cause in reality i was hurting ALOT!!!! hahaha. you didn't know that did u, crystal. alexandra... if u didn't know... crystal was the girl i dated after u. she's 18 (maybe) hahaha and was the absolutely most amazing woman in my life. she's the one i told u that had a worse temper then me. the one that made me know wut it felt like to be on the other end of the stick. she's the one that's been putting a funk in my life recently. she thinks i don't kare about her but damn she was my whole world. hahahaha on me. oh wells... it takes lots of alcohol for me to being able to finally say it. i hope that i'm man enuff tomorrow to post this whole damn thing in my blog. now that i know u got another man i can say it all. u gotta try and be as honest as u can in these blogs. i was worried about who might see it before... but now i'm FREE BABY!!! i think that booze removes all of your inhibitions and permits you to say exactly wuts on your mind. if thats the case then i should stay drunk every single day. too bad that i really hate the taste of alcohol. csi is on while i'm typing this. its like my most favoritist show in the whole wide world!! man i think i'm really drunk cause i didnt even eat dinner yet. i started drinking since 5:30 PM and now its 8:45. wooo hooo. i was only gonna get a little drunk then go out clubbin but sho enuff i was havin another bad hair day. havent dyed my hair blonde yet and feeling a little insecure about my looks. those mexicans that practices soccer every day in the little green pacth in front of my apartment were there again today. by that time i was kinda drunk already and had the "reggaeton" blastin on my boom box and was lifting weights on my balcony looking at them. i musta looked bad-ass cause they hardly even looked at me while i was pumpin iron. (they prolly thought i was mexican also) hahahaha. living in texas for a year and a half i'm quite dark complected for an asian. when they speak to me in spanish... i have to point at myself and say "chino" to them.... meaning i'm asian or chinese to be precise. iwished they would know i'm half korean. but "chino" basically means asian to them. anyways... i'm really pretty wasted right now. got some more redbull and vodka chilling in the freezer. hey crystal... my freezer was stinking like frozen meats so i finnaly threw out all that old-assed chicken and pork thats been in there since we were last together... AND... i finally cleaned the crib out also. since i went grocery shopiing i think 2 weeks ago.. i just left the bags of grocery against the wall across from the front door. some of the new clothes i bought the other dayt o also left there. the ps2 that used to be in the bedroom is also in the liveing room, and the whole place smelles like rotting meat that i left in the trash can. well i threw EVERYTHING out. gonna hafta make my crib a little more presentable for any company i plan on having. i'm gonna talk frankie into coming here and getting his ass loaded. maybe even chaka also. (chaka is the black chick that used to work with me) she's like super cool and sexy. hahahaha.. i nevr had jungle fever b4. last i heard... my half brother married a black chick in the pen. hahaha.. why should he have all the fun??
 hey i feel my buzz kinda wearing off a little so i better drink some more i left in the freezer. brb, k?
hahaha just called crystal up again and sang her a little song. thats kinda messed up, huh? whelps i don't really kare cause i'm feeling pretty good. chaka better call me back in like 10 minutes or else i'm gonna be calling her too. wonder if there's anything going on in the clubs tonite cause i really feel like partying. oh yeah.. ummm.. that christian chick thats been leaving comments for me... thanks for all ur concern, babe. i really appreciate it alot. muah to u, k? i mean i don't even knoe u and u don't even knoe me but yet u take some of ur precious time to give me some postive advice. ur a true christian. by the way.. wuts ur real name. i'm sure its on ur profile but since i'm typing this on my computer at home and i don't have internet at the time being AND i'm not a psychic that can travel through the time/space continuum. live long and prosper by the way. hahaha. may bad. forealz... thanks for your comments and positive reinforcements. (i really hope that i have the guts to post this thing without censoring it tomorrow). i really should eat something before i pass out but forealz i'm kinda in a pretty comfortable place right now. things are kinda spinning around. really pretty groovey. hahahaha. hey.. i hope i don't get too embarrassed when i'm reading this sober in the morning. i feel free!!! free to say wutever i wanna say. i'm not sure if its a good or bad thing. only time will tell. well i guess crystal aint gonna call me back. chaka better call me back in a couple of minute else i'm gonna pass out. wow... looks like no dinner tonite. thats all i got for the time being. still deliberating whether or not to finish off that last redbull and vodka. feeling kinda woozy. trying not to lie down. isnt it amazing how i still worry about my spelling even when i'm drunk? hahaha... i crack myself up. just do it. do it. finish off that last drink. hahahaha. brb. gonna take a break.
  hey wassup! wb to me. just got off the fone with crystal. talked for almost an hour on the company mobile. my boss is gonna have a fit but wutevers. at least i was able to spill out the truth. i was honest. gonna do everything i promised her cause i never break my promises. no matter if i'm a lying sack of sh*t, sorry to all my christian peeps reading this. *winks*. i may be drunk but that doesnt mean i hafta be rude. lolz. glad i'm typing all of this out now. u've got it in writing so u can sue me if i don't carry out my promise. hahaha... got the hip hop back on the radio. its been a really long time. i guess u cant hide who u and wut u really are. i am complex. old school one day. rocker another. molasses pop lover evn another. i should try and do wut i wanna do, instead of living my life for others. wut i wanna do is get my eyebrow pierced and maybe my nipple. no i'm not a freak but i just wanna have it done. the tattoo... now that is a major conflict. even tho i try and deny it, i'm still basically a nerd at heart. even tho i love knowledge, i'm still a thug at heart. i don't wanna hurt peeps but i have no hesitation about really f*cking someone up that deserves it. i think i'm like "constatine" from the movie. he trys and sends back the demons to hell even tho he knows he will be relegated to eternal damnation for the sin that he committed. i know i will be damned. everything bad that happens to me i deserve. as long as i don't hurt any innocents.. i should be satisfied to my fate. mental note: stray true to myself. i wanna tattoo. a body tattoo. just do it. i want some piercings. just get it. whenever i find true love... she will see beyond all of that and just love me for who and wut i am. i change. i adapt. i am who i am. goodnight all. and thanx for just reading this and caring if u leave a comment.
 no worries all... i'm gonna drag my drunk ass to the library and upload this, that way i won't wuss out and try and censor this in the morning. crystal... i'll always love you. alexandra... best wishes and i'll always love u forealz.
have a wonderful day all. peace out. 

 special note: hey kassie... thanx for the comments.

this isn't really a poem but kinda a freestyle while i was drunk.

i walked outta my apartment and saw u sitting there.

who are u?

just some mexican chick with regaeton blasting and your dorr wide open.

why are you sitting outside all alone?

i wanna say hello to you but you act like u don't even see me.

i walk back in cause i left my window open.

when i leave i don't want anyone to steal what little i have.

i then close the door but remember i have to take my netflix with me

cause i already copied them and i wanna get the new ones.

you dont even look at me as i go back inside.

i lock the door but forgot to get my laptop.

i unlock the door and go back inside. you still don't even look at me.

i finally get everything that i need.

and walk past by you and want to say "hola"

you might think i'm a drunk so i keep my mouth shut.

i get in my truck and look both ways before i back out.

the truck next to me is parked too close.

i back up slowly and then drive out

flying down the highway at 70 plus

i try not to swerve to get a cops' attention.

concentrate so hard to stay on my lane. use all of my blinkers just to stay on the safe side.

i fly pass a street sweeper  and use my turn signals to stay clear of them.

their blinking arrows mesmerizes me.

 even though i fly i try and be couteous to all of my fellow drivers

cause i don't wanna do anything stupid that might cause others harm.

funny how when i'm drunk that i still don't wanna hurt others.

i pass a car that has emergency flashers

i wonder what is wrong with them

if they had a flat tire i might have helped

but i see them walking in front of their car

i fly up the highway but try and keep the speed limit

its 60, maybe 65 and sure not 70.

i'm proud of myself cause i'm being careful.

i dont want any problems cause i have a mission.

i have to post this blog without any changes

at last i'm here

i hope you all appreciate the truth as i have the guts to tell it.

good night all, hope you still care even reading all of this.

isnt it amazing how even a drunk can still put down his thoughts in a truthfull manner

and in a somewhat dignified manner?

lets see what i think of this when i read it in the morning.

hahhahaha.

by the way... i bugged jinnie to send me a current pic. i musta been really pursuasive cause she actually did. lemme look at it and i'll write some more...

hahaha.. omg jinnie u freakin liar!!!

you said that ur old and made me think that ur an ajumma (old lady in korean)

jesus christ ur such a hottie!!!! omg! omg! omg!

i'm gonna send u an email and yell at u for being such a great big liar!!!

forealz u really, really, suck!!!!!!

okiez... i'm gonna stop trippin and pass out pretty soon.. (after i send jinnie an email) puahahahaha

nite all and take karez!