no matter how i hard i try and ignore it or play it off, i'm feeling so much hate. forealz i just wanna bust someone's head open or get my head busted. trying to work out my frustrations on the weights just seem to be fueling my testosterone. i alternate between beautiful songs but get tired of it and turn back to some heavy shiet. linkin park and jay-z just gets me more worked up. feeling kinda like a rabid mad dog. bleh~ i hate being like this. gonna get pierced tonite. might calm me down or it might jump start me to even more hatred.

 laterz