i guess the confessions to A* yesterday was wut my soul really needed. for the first time in over a month i was able to sleep soundly and without any visions or dreams. 7 straight hours! wuts amazing was that i did it without alcohol or sleeping tablets. read a blog from a girl who is serbian living in ny. she's in a long distance relationship and her bf is still in serbia. gosh i hope they can make it work! we need more success stories when dealing with long distance love.

 i need to do some stuff for halloween today but feel like such a lazy-ass. i really need to find me a mask or put together a costume or something. my homeboy frankie is gonna dress up as disco stu from the simpsons cartoon. he'll look so stupid wit that big-ass afro wig he bought. lol. i'm not the kind of guy that can pull off dressing up funny so will prolly be some kind of monster or something. maybe a vampire again. they can be intimidating yet sexy. too bad there'll be hundreds of other vampires also. sigh. oh wells... when i see "it", i'll know, meaning the right mask or costume. listening to the new trance/house dj mixes i got from last nite, somehow it feels appropriate. happy music thats not intimidating nor requires too much effort to enjoy. u just flow with the rythem and hypnotic beats.

 it feels as if i'm spritually on another level today. i feel so calm and peaceful and at ease with situation that has been dealt me. i'm feeling so good that i'm gonna clean this pig-stye of a crib up. have a wonderful day, all. peace out