got off work kinda late. bought some groceries and a costume during lunch earlier so had to run back to the crib to put them in the fridge after work. well after lunch a bad cold front and rain came in. it was already dark and cold by the time work was over. forealz i did not wanna go out in that kind of weather. but wut the hell... it was halloween after all. when i got home logged online for a sec to see if A* was still online. it was like 12:30 her time by then. yups, she was online. i wanted to approach her cause i had seen that someone left me a comment in hungarian. hey if u did something then just admit it. like i'm not a complete idiot. even my poor little feeble brain can kinda put 2 and 2 together and get 4 (sometimes anyways). lol. anyways... couldnt really remember all that was said cause i was kinda frustrated and it was getting late. had to log out when she said "brb". 

 was supposed to hook up wit my homeboy frankie on 6th street. a little about 6th street. austin, texas is known as the live music capitol of the world.. lolz.. wutevers. they have a couple of huge musical events a year thats quite famous. u have South By Southwest where all of the up and coming bands are able to display their talents. then u have the Austin City Limits which is kinda famous if u ever watch public tv. lots of mainstream groups play during that one. Coldplay headlined this years. anyways... the entertainment district is maybe 10 city blocks. kinda like new orleans. nothing but bars and clubs and eclectic type shops. during major holidays they block off all the streets and so it becomes like a huge block party. i think last year it was estimated that 80,000 peeps attended. so u can imagine wut a big deal halloween is if ur single and wanna party. my costume was cheesy cause all the good ones were already taken. i went as one the " soul gatherer" or wutever from the harry potter movie. hey it had a tight flowing shredded ghost body wit a hoody and veil that draped over the face. all in black. the stupid mask that came wit it i didint wear cause it was meant for a kid. watcha expect for $20? by the time i got there is was like freakin 40° and windy. i wasnt expecting it to be that cold so didnt put on anything thick under the costume. dude... i was freezing my balls off 30 mins after i got there. i call up frankie and asked when he was coming over. "hey some of my brothers and cousins are here watching monday nite football so im gonna chill for awhile he says". wtf? monday nite football on the biggest party night of the year????? dangggg he more lazy-ass than me. it like u know, no pain, no gain. wutevers. shiet i need to make more friends.

 i bounced from bar to bar downing jello shots. hey $1 each will get u a good buzz after 5 or 10. i knoe i'm a pussy but i dont really drink. i mean the only reason i started drinking recently was just to drown my sorrow. but b4 all this was happening.. i might drink a margarita once every couple of weeks. i dont drink beer at all cause i hate the taste. so if u been reading my blogs and thought i was an alcoholic, u'd be sooo wrong. anyways... wasnt really the same cause i didnt have anyone to hangout wit and talk to. everyone had costumes on so u cant really tell wut they looked like. had a hard time telling asians from mexicans. i was surrounded by thousands of peeps but i wasnt having a good time at all. shiet i'm in the top 10 cities in the whole USA for singles and i cant even find anyone that i can hang out with. being alone really sucks. the cold even put me in a worse mood. my mind was on something else...

 hey i'm not good on this dating stuff but how long should a dude call a chick after the first call? if u call 2 days in a row does that make me seem pushy? i mean how u know they want u to call them back? yeah i had my mind on this all nite long. its like should i or shouldnt i? they said call me tomorrow but did they say that just to be nice? 

 read some blogs after the block party. well just from one particular blogger. read every single entry they made for 2 months. wow. blew me away. made me wanna pick up the fone and see if they alright. shiet i suck. gotta do something about this compassionate streak in me. spent all nite in a bad mood. my bones were still cold. tempted to drink some more but i know i'd just be wasting it.

 how in the hell did i lose the high from life in such a short time? yesterday i was feeling great. today i feel crappy. anyways... went to sleep by 12:00. all night i had the same stupid dream. shiet i lost it. but i remember it had a famous dude in it. i think it was a game show  grrrrr... i really lost the dream. it was a stupid one anyways.

 well... tonite's the nite. gonna hafta go to the tat shop later after watching all my shows on tv. was gonna do it last nite but all the tat shops were so full of peeps.

"my name is earl" is on tonite. its my fav show of the season. that whole karma thingie i can relate to but the main reason is that the show is hella funny.

 looks like its gonna be linkin park and jay-z day today. screamin alternative is my fav when i feel crappy. fawk i need a change. this city is smotherin me. gotta start thinking about where i wanna go move to next again.

peace out peeps.