Cause in the end we are just re-born again. Funny thing about that. My favorite lines from a song speak of handing my love my mortal life, but will it be forever. I am a lost girl, searching for that place where I can fit in and call myself home.

No one seems to take the time to actually understand how other people work… function. Technology and the future cloud the present. What does tomorrow mean if you don’t even know what you did today. What does it mean to grow with someone if you don’t even know why they start brushing their teeth on the right side, top and work down and to the left.  So many conflicts could be avoided if people could just take the time to understand where the other person is coming from.Location, how they were raised is such a key factor into someone’s behavior reactions. I love to be the silent observer and just watch the little things. For example, there is this guy I am seeing, well call him Mex. He is so tough and so whatever, but yet when I leave him at night he wants me to call him to let him know that I am home, safe. He checks in after a few days of not talking and always makes it a point to answer the phone when I call. He even admitted to me he likes hugs. It is those little moments when you catch someone off guard and for a few seconds and all the walls and filters are gone, and you see the perfectly messed up person that they are.

My 29 years of life have been a ride. But no matter what I still to this day regret nothing. That is just the path that I am/ was living. Now if there was a way to change the past then, yes, I’d be the first one in line many times during the day/ week etc. to fix what I did. But since there isn’t then OH WELL!! What is done is done.  Just live and learn. 

 I may never have my one true love, so instead, I will love myself. I <3 myself.

Song: Lost Boys - 69 Eyes

Movie: Crazy Beautiful