I knew my life was about to get its fair share of BS! The last few days have been...frustrating to say the least, things at work been going crazy, and in my personal life as well. New friends coming in , but the old ones are going out!  Know how bad it feels to be stabbed in the back (overn over) by ur best friend? Well it feels horrible, but it feels even worse to be treated like u were the one who screwed em over.

My ex best is getting married. I have tried to call her on her b day and thanksgiving  but no answer no response at all. I knew she was engaged(I heard from a mutual friend), but i just found out tha her wedding is next Sat...man i was so hurt. WHY? i dunno..deep down  i thought, hoped, that she'd change her ways and we could be friends again,  but not even bein told about her wedding much less invited to it just sealed the deal for me.

Tha happened lass night then today i get to work and recieve sum more annoying news. That on top of the stuff lass night, plus sum other personal things really had me in a baddddddddd mood. I jus co

mpletely shut down. I didn't talk to anyone, ppl would say something to me and i'd jus smug it off... give a smile, or a quick response. I didn't take it out on the kids though, working with kids when ur upset can be either reallyg ood, or really bad. Today  it was really good, lots of hugs, dancing and jus being silly with the kids..

I wanted to call my ex whom i usually run to whenever im having a bad day or my other buddy jus for a friendly voice  but i didn't. I realized tha tho it woulda been nice , im not a baby and don't always need my back rubbed by a guy in my life.

I felt bad for letting myself get so bound  by the stressors in my life. Walking around all mad , mean muggin and having an attitude, thas not me...i dun think i laughed one time today and YOU KNOW thas not me!

I didn't want to run to my male friends as usual, but i knew i needed to vent...so here it is!