ay fat gurl!

Latley all i talk about is my weight. I joke about it , make comments about it. to my friends IM SORRY about that lol Its why im not tyring to date right now though cuz i know no man wants to constantly hear that! And no man wants an insecure woman. But there is a reason...i gained 40 LBS in 6 mos and  another 20 lbs in 3 months. A total of 60 lbs to already being overweight, it shook me up ya'll ..but check this out....

Imma take ya'll on a journey..this might be disturbing to some lol

Picture this:

Lunch: sample what the kids are served ~then~ McDonalds 10 nuggets, large fry and  a dbl cheeseburger, large soda. ~or ( if i didn't feel like eating real food)~ snack bag of chips,2 big boxes of candy( cuz u know they be on sale!) one soda AND one juice dinner: 12 pieces home  fried chicken with my own special "hot sauce"  and either a juice or soda

Yes that used to be how i ate on a daily basis...notice i didn't say anything about water or some damn vegetables!..or any form of exercise

Picture this:

for lunch one day i had a whole 12 inch pizza  and a juice. I got home my mom wanted pizza...so guess wha i did ...i ate ANOTHER 12 inch pizza...the whole thing!

I  used to drive to parks and sit and eat whole pizza's or Mcdonalds so i wouldn't have to "hear it" from my mom. And when i'd get home i'd eat again just so she wouldn't ask what'd you eat?

Some might ask why am i putting this out there on Myspace, well it's simple. The struggles i go through might help someone else who is going through the same thing. i KNOW IT SOUNDS CLICHE but if i can change my eating habbits then i know anyone of you out there can do it to.

I  now eat subway or other light foods for lunch! I can't even tell you when the last time i had a bag of skittles or chips. LISTEN TO ME PEOPLE...eating junk food was a daily habbit for me and LOADS of it. I don't feel irritable or unhappy in doing so...i STILL eat. I had mcdonalds last week....but i had a happy meal! I still make mistakes, but im much better off than i was and in about 2 weeks...i lost 12 lbs.

I prayed and prayed hard for God to renew my mind to give me the strength to change my wants so that i don't even crave to eat the way i used to. If you just open the door for him he will come in and help you with any situation. As always...this is a true testament of what God has done for me. But my story is just beginning..... so stay tuned!

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