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Here's the thing, i used to be a social butterfuly who had a whole slew of ppl i kicked it with, .I had no real social standards, i kicked it with ANYONE who seemed fun. I didn't do all the things they did, but i was truly down for whatever( no sex or crazy ish like that) i just ALWAYS had to be out . I was also a date-a holic , if u approached me for my # u probably got it! I was always looking for "love" or..someone to occupy my time and keep me from being bored..i had it bad, i  went on so many dates that even i couldnt keep up. I dated guys who i knew like me even loved me and i had no interest in them at all--but at least it got me out the house.At least it kept me from being alone on V-day. At least it kept everyone thinking i was happy...well   Circumstances change my entire outlook on life, the ppl i was around were bad for me ( and i was bad for some ppl) and ultimately i ended up with 2 constant friends, one girl, & one guy ...who i needed to break away from as well !

THE FEMALE was truly always there for me, would have willingly done ANYTHING, and  given her last, all i had to do was basically give her my soul. Sound strange..it is. She was super possesive of me, very jealous, and obsessivly dependant on me for her joy. I felt bad for her....in my mind i thought i could "help" her, but i was only becoming a huge crutch for her. She was very negative and seemed to hate life. She was very anti-social and  brought out the worst in people. Ultimatley i thought i could change her, but she was the one who began to change me. I went from a fun loving girl, to bitter and always "down" ....i used to hit the mall, hit the club, go play cards... but with this girl all we ever did was go out to eat cuz she hated being around people.  It was hard for me to break away for her...only cuz i knew it would hurt her tremendously( she pulled that suicide card the first time i tried..) AND i knew that only leave me with one person who is a constant source of companionship..BUT i did it, it's been about 2 months and my life was instantly more peaceful .

THE GUY -a guy deeply in love who'd also do anything for me. Unfortunaly i never had any romantic interest in him so i should i set him free a long time ago, but he was always my last resort guy cuz with him at least i knew he loved me. He wasnt a dog in the sense of cheating and lying but an ass in the way he spoke to me. He was very arrogant and cocky and had this "air" about him. I put up with his degrading ways for over 3 years just cuz i was weak minded and felt i "needed" him.

EXAMPLES.. jus recently: I got a new high tech phone - instad of congradulating, he said:" why would u get a phone like that? U don't know how to work it and u dun even have a need for anything like that?" His tone is always very matter of factly and superior. ** I recently became a member of the board of directors for a very prestigious facility and his first reaction was: " why would they pick u? I 'm just saying, what qualifies u for something  like that?" He quickly apologized for sounding like a "cynic"...but the damage was already done)

He also bagn dissing the one thing that has given me strength and courage to change my life....my faith and moral beliefs! (dissing someone else who shares my beliefs is essentially dissing me)

I'm free - now  no one can hold me  back but me!