I know this is my pay back..for every guy who i led on , who i went out with, who wanted me and i didn't want them back....but yet i allowed them to grow closer to me....ahh...pay back is truly a b*tch ...

I'll keep this buried in my heart forever if i have to...i miss u so much. As tomorrow approaches im stuck with all these mixed emotions....i tried to walk away from u, to not miss u, to not want u ..to ..not...love..u....its so hard, ive never been in this situation before....ever..i had to completley walk away from u...to let God handle it....thas how bad it was for me. Ultimately i guess its no point trying to fight it....i love u, and i always will....blahhh