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| I was a cocky( in terms of interpersonal relationshipz) naive, self righteous, and spoiled. In terms of guyz ( the ones i fell for) i was clingy, jealous, possesive, and non trusting...in terms of self..i was non decisive, non assertive...and a plain ol push over. My life used to be full of pain, but i finally said NO MORE. Thre differenc between now and then is that i finally have help..... |
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been doing so much reflecting these last couple of months.
Man...reflecting on love....when it's good, it's great, but sometimes
love has limits..and when those limits are crossed there's really no
going back....same with friendships... CC and i have been through a lot together, but we both held back on how we truly felt, and now..we are no where. I've been trying to reach out to them, but they have been shutting me down..so for now..I'll leave it alone. I got the message, loud and clear, have nice lives girls.... I feel that true friends will tell you what u need to hear, not just what u want to hear. If thats true, I've been guilty of not being a true friend to L, who all this time i've been sugar coating for..and helping her be who she is today. I can tell that things aren't going to be the same for me in 2006....i suppose thats a good thing seeing as how things weren't too good for me anyway. I feel a bit uneasy about it though. I wonder who's gonna be in my life and who isn't.... It's odd...the people i didn't expect are the ones who seem to be sticking in there...ice man especially..Tw I'm sure he and I will be friends probably forever, D..i'm really not sure, some are to say we aren't friends anymore because the relationship ended, but I view him as a friend, not as a best friend, but i know in time we'll get to a point where we'll either be best of buds...or more of ***ociates..i don't see anything inbetween...just as K and I are now. L, i feel things will work out, at this point it's either all or nothing, so we'll see wha happens. Tee and i desperatley want to keep our friendship, i hope we can in the midst of all the stuff going on between us now. As for everyone else, i think things are good and i see no reason why 0r how they would change. | ||
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