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So , my day as hectic !
I woke up early, around 7;30 getting ready for ther doctor( which was a
good visit..btw) I'm watching Big Brother, and for the record I'm
hoping James stays in the house! But neway, it's been almost a week
sense i stopped being friends with Kory. I still miss his
companionship, but i have no choice but to get over it. I can't say
that i miss christa, my feelings for her or still the same, hopefully
they will lighten as my spiritual journey deepens, today in my reading
i read a great passage about resentment.
Space, i give myself space from people who make me habor bad feelings,
who keep me feeling down. I had to do this with someone else . It
had nothing to do with Tyrus or anyone else, but had to do with me.
We talked about it yesterday in which he told me it was unfair. I
don't feel as though it's unfair, We want two different things, and
neither one of us can fold or give in to the others desires.
I..tried to do it his way...he's tried to do it mine, it just doesn't
work. But...while trying to do it his work i was the one who got burned
so, there's no way i'd ever do it again. Anyway, can't be a people
pleaser, whats not fair to him is fair to me, and whas not fair to me
seems fair to him.
All i really want to do is rest but i couldn't ! When i got home from
the hospital at 1 pm i went to sleep i was high on benedryl trying to
weed out the sneezing and itchy eyes..which complicates my tumor makes
my head feel like there are bricks bouncing from each side of my head
everytime i move..anyway..a by 2 pm i am woking up by an endless
ringing of the door bell, i go to answer it and it's my niece, OH
GREAT!...My bro comes in and sayz" i have to pick up A from work, she
sick" I'm thinking, big deal so I am, but i cave and let him leave the
kids, with one exception..he take the 4 old old with him...his face
dropped, but he says , "ok" by the time he was headed out the door my
mom shows up, both kids stayed. My mom took care of the 4 old old, i
had the baby. Everytime i would fall back asleep he would cry!....By
4:30...my mom was gone, and i was left with both kids...ughhh still no
rest...around 6 i call twyon and he brings me sum goodies to make me
feel better, he stayed for about ten minutes and we watched the
simpons....before he left around 6:30 i called my bro and asked him to
come get the kids! He said he didnt plan on coming til after 8;30 or
so..i said NAH IMMA NEED U TO OCME BEFORE THEN...so he goes, imma have
my wife drop me off and she'll pick the kids up...well it's 7:54 and
they JUST left =(
I'm being so taking advantage of...anyway, ..i ask his wife how she was
feeling and she said "im still sick, but ig uess i gotta deal with it
cuz Al went to play basketball" I'm like WTF he left u with two small
kids while u sick to play BASKETBALL????? Not my problem....i felt kina
bad though lol but not bad enuff shoot im sick too and they NOT my kids!
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