I know how you feel when you read my blogs
and don't see your name, how we can have a great day together and only
come on here to see all this crap about who hurt or pissed me off, and
i KNOW how tha feels from experience.
Writing here is my therapy it's how i deal with sad hurtful things,
with things tha make me cry, make me mad. Rarely do i ever write
about good things. It makes me sad though, you got me all wrong.
But i can't blame ya.
You think i am going after the "bad boys" when i swear all i want is a
good guy. I know you are a good guy, who would always put me first, and
i don't feel like spelling it out here, but you know there are things
tha keep me from looking at u the way u need me to be looking at u.
As far as wanting the bad boys, the person i recently fell for did hurt
me, by picking a "bad girl" over me. But i just told him that I am
done, to stop 'trying to work it out " but to actually just go back and
be together with his ex.
Everyday he tells me how much he loves me, and guess wha, i actually
got fed up! You love me huh, but can't see the obvious choice? Well,
ok, too bad for you.
I am so sorry, i wish you could see yourself the way i see
you, and hear urself the way i hear u. Everyday i fight feelings
of annoyance with you just because you ARE such a good person. I do not
want to keep feeling like a bad guy here though, i can't help the way i
feel, and i can't force myself to feel more than i do either, i know
because i've tried =/
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