I
can't seem to get anything done. I think i can chalk it up to my work
environment. It sucks, when i am here at home i do not feel like
working, and when i do get in the zone i am constantly being
disturbed. If it not the kids, it's my mom. It's if not my mom, it's
the phone. My mom's main thing right now is she's too busy to help me
with the fine tunning of my business, but always down my throat about
when im gonna have something going. "I'm ready to see something in
action" WELL FUKK ! What is it that you think i'm trying to do ?
lol...arhhh, now she's on her, " you need a job" tip. "You need
money, cuz mine is running low" Man look, nothing i do will ever please
you, and quite frankly, i'm tired of trying. You want to see action,
well that's not going to happen unless i devote countless hours to the
start up, which is a slow process for me because i need her's or
someone's business savoy and ideas. But i can't even sit stil
long enough to conjour up something cause i got her on one shoulder and
my brother and his damn kids on another.
Look, for now on, i might just have to mike up my lap top, and hit the
road. I have no money, so getting lunch and gas is gonna be a problem,
but i think it's wha im gonna have to start doing.
When i wake up in the morning, i have a lot of things on my mind, i
destress myself by running, which right now my legs are KILLING me lol
but it's a good kind of pain. I do not need other ppl adding to my
stress, believe me i have my own worries.
The problem is, i don't want to "hurt" or let anyone down. I don't want
to tell my brother no, even though he is wearing me down. I pull myself
too thin, i can't please everyone and keep myself last of the
list. Something's got to give, and if it doesn't happen soon it's
gonna be me!
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