Detrimental Entanglement

Exing

"Well, you've mentioned before that I never write you unless something's wrong, so I guess I'm just writing to say I love you. And I hope you haven't decided to break up with me as tends to happen when we go a few days without much communication. I never really understand that one"

Every word of that makes me cringe.
Cringing in the sense that it's my damn fault in the first place... That something, somewhere changed.

You left, and I cried. I went to my aunt's room, and cried more. She told me to call in a week. I wanted to call then. I wanted to chase after you. I didn't want this to be it. This was our curtain-call.
I took a shower until the hot water ran out. I punched the wall until I couldn't feel my hand, now my knuckles are blueish-green. I cried and thought about killing myself, or getting drunk off my ass.
But no...
I signed on AIM for the first time in a week or so, and you were on. I wanted to type something. I wanted to call.
To say "just kidding!" To kiss you again, or hold you, or laugh.. Something.

Then I threw up. It was me.
This was me.
We knew it would happen... But not today.
Why today?

Corbin you were something different. For almost sixth months, you were life-support. What do you do with your time, now that you have so much of it?
Who holds you when you're cold, or crying your eyes out?

It's not fair.
You know it isn't fair.

The shirt, for your information was written about you. Everything you make me feel, it was completely honest and true, and all about you.
Take care of Chester.

By that I mean, "Please never love anyone the way you loved me..."

Pi

...because no one will hug you like I do, or kiss you like I do. No one will need you like I do. No one can love you the way I do.

We found a problem that strong love can't fix.

10:00 PM - Sunday, March 5, 2006 - post comment

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