My husband has been gone now for a few days. I heard from him yesterday. He said that he is ok and that Iraq is hot. It was good to hear from him. I wish that he would contact me again. I really hate that I can't talk to him more often. I am so worried about him. I don't know what I would do if I lost him. He is my everything. Soon I will start a new job and will be moving to his hometown. I am worried that I will feel so alone. I pray all the time about everything. I just pray that my husband is kept safe.

I need to start packing up my apartment, but don't even feel like getting off of the couch. This is probably the most productive thing I have done today. I keep watching my MSN Messenger screen to see if I have any new emails. When I do I get nervous, wondering if it is from my husband. I hope this doesn't continue. I don't want it to interfere with my job.

To anyone reading this that thinks critically about our soldiers and their families, you will never know what we go through. I never understood until my husband left. It is an indescribable feeling.