Gaze

It was a good party... tanha kasi ke har az gahi yade in miofteh ke hameh ro doreh ham jam koneh Poupak hastesh. A o E va man hameh ba ham raftim. az oonja ke hoseleh drunk kardan o dobareh raftan too moodi gloomy ro nadashtam gharar shod oona drink konan o man drive.

hich vaght ehtiaj be drink baraye raghsidan nadashtam .ta sobh mitoonam beraghsam bedooneh inke ehtiaji be drug dashteh basham. too in ye mored vaghean khosh be halam chon adamaye ziadi injoory nistan. E alan velow shodeh roo mobl o hezar ta padeshah ham dareh khab mibineh. A rafteh khooneh doostesh ke ma be hesab girly night dashteh bashim.

ama az hadaf az neveshtan  e emshab. hich chizi man ro be andazeh mehmooni iroon khosh hal nemikoneh va hich vaght lazem nist baraye javab be davatesh 2 bar fekr konam. oon mogheh hha khodam ham khaili mehmooni midadam ama digeh hoselash ro nadaram.

ye chizi ke too har mehmooni  e irooni man ro shegeft zadeh mikoneh GAZE hastesh... in negah haye amigh baine dokhtara o pesara, khanooma o aghaha... lazem nist az sene khasi bashi mojarad ya moteahel hamisheh in Gaze donbaleteh. avalin bar too ye film az karhaye Shirin Neshat man ba Gaze ashna shodam. hamoon negahi ke too har gooshe kenar e iran hastesh.. har kasi in negah ro balad nist bayad irani bashi ta betooni cheshm too cheshm intor amigh negah koni, tanha chizi ke harasoonam mikoneh o hamisheh baes misheh zood cheshmam ro becharkhoonam hamin omghe neghahe adamast............. hata roo dance floor vaghti be doret negah mikoni o mibini ke mardha donbale in hastan ke cheshmeshoon too cheshmet biofteh kharashidan roohet ro ehsas mikoni.. man adame khejalati nistam ama az in negah motenaferam. emshab tasmim gereftam ke hata ye lahzeh ham be doram negah nakonam faghat too cheshmaye A ya E negah konam ya inke kasani ke ba ham harf mizanan............ faghat ye marde irooni hamchin negahi be ye zan mikoneh. hich nation e digeh ee in negah ro yad nagerefteh.

engar ke mikhan ba negaheshoon payghoomi bedan ageh bekham manfi fekr konam engar ke daran tamoome vojoodet ro tajzieh tahlil mikonan. ageh mosbat fekr konam engar mikhan yadeshoon biad ke to ro koja didan. ba ye fekr ( ke nemidoonam khoobeh ya bad) be cheshmat bedoone pelk zadan khireh mishan.  vaghti bache boodam in negah hamisheh doram bood too otoboos ya taxi, too mehmooni ya forooshgah... ehsas rahat i nabood va hamishe kamtar az yek dahom e sanieh mishod ke chesham ro be jaye digeh ee khireh mikardam. hala ke in negah ro mishnasam baz ham hese asooni nist. engar mikham dad bezanam o begam bebakhshid ha ye kami privacy !!!!!!!!

vaghti emshab in mozoo ro ba yeki az doostam discuss kardam behem goft to divoonehee ....to ham bayad yad begiri ke hamoontory negaheshoon ro pas bedi........ yani chi nemifahmam. man faghat dar soorati too cheshmeh kasi nega mikonam ke taraf dareh baham sohbat mikoneh.

negah ha khaili harf daran. roo in mozoo salha pish too daneshgah kar kardam o movafagh shodam 105 ta negaheh mokhtalef jam konam... rasti yadam rafteh bood bayad oon project ro ye roozi zendeh konam. oon mogheh ha ba akasi in kar ro kardam.......... am hich vaght nemidoonestam ke khodam nemidoonam ke chetor negah mikonam. fekr mikonam ghesmati az khodshenasi baseh.

ye project jadid misheh azash dorost kard ye sery soal bayad benvisam o pakhshehsh konam bein adamaee ke man ro mishnasan va adam haee ke man ro nemishnasan va azshoon bekham ba tavajoh be negaheh man be soalat javab bedan....... khail bekaram na?

jaleb bood emshab ham dar nahayate hoshiari ye chizi yad gereftam.

1:35 AM - Oct. 12, 2008 - post comment

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negah ha taghriban hamon chizi ro migan ke to dele adam migzare.
nemidonestam inghadr negah vojod dare.
che tahghighe jalebi.
in zolzol negah kardan male rohiye jostojogar va harise irani hast ke chize ziyad khobi nist.

Anonymous - 4:06 AM - Oct. 16, 2008