...i love them now

1. car underwater
believe the news. i’m gone for good. call off the search. no one will know that i am down here. believe the note i left for you. you can’t turn back the clocks. you can’t pull me up from here so don’t try. i’m in a car underwater with time to kill. thinking back i forgot to tell you this: i didn’t care that you left and abandoned me. what hurts more is i would still die for you. make time slower. give me longer. but it’s too late for me. no one will know that i am down here. believe your dreams of me sinking so far below. you can’t pull me up from here so don’t try. i’m in a car underwater with time to kill. thinking back i forgot to tell you this: i didn’t care that you left and abandoned me. what hurts more is i would still die for you. leave it up to me to burden you again, but this ones not your fault…please forgive me. leave it up to me to burden you again, but this ones not your fault…so forget me. don’t think back on me at all. just let me go.
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2. the truth about heaven
walked past my grave in the dark tonight. saw the stone and the note you left for me. to answer your question, i just had to leave, i just had to leave. but that’s not why i’m here. i came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long. i wanna find you so bad and let you know i’m miserable up here without you. found my way back in the dark tonight. couldn’t wake up not right next to you. i’d trade in forever to just hear you say the sound of my name. but that’s not what i’m here. i came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long. i wanna find you so bad and let you know i’m miserable up here without you. don’t believe that its better when you leave everything behind. don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die.
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3. remember to feel real
so here’s the truth: 1)you were right all along 2)they were never my friends 3) i was living a lie. but i won’t fall for it next time. you figured me out. i’m like a leaf in the wind. i try and find who i am but wind up lost in the end. sometimes it’s hard to know what’s real when you’re not. ‘cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me. but i’m sick of trying so hard. waste all your time with me. i know i’m a mess right now. don’t give up, believe…i’d wait it out for you. every day i’m just making my rounds, just digging a home six feet underground. sometimes it’s hard to know what’s real when you’re not. ‘cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me. but i’m sick of trying so hard. waste all your time with me. i know i’m a mess right now. don’t give up, believe… i’d wait it out for you. nothing’s here for me but you.
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4. awkward last words
i wanna live again. i wanna start everything over again. i wanna get this right. i’ll meet you in another life over again. i’ll be coming back around again…coming back over again. i’m coming back around again…but now it’s over. we’re out of time and i can’t breathe. i told you not to believe in me. ‘cause all i do is push you far away from me…all i do is push you far away from me. i’m gonna make this work. i’m gonna change everything wrong with me. i’m gonna prove you wrong, when i meet you in another life over again…i’ll be coming back around again…coming back over again. i’m coming back around again…but now it’s over. we’re out of time and i can’t breathe. i told you not to believe in me. ‘cause all i do is push you far away from me…all i do is push you far away from me. i never had the gift of holding on to you. you’re so far away. i wanna live again. i wanna start everything over again.
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5. stay on the ground
i started looking out for myself today. but then i stopped ‘cause i don’t care. i’m feeling bored of feeling numb. so now i’ll stop ‘cause i don’t care. so get it, get it, get it right. i’m not holding on to a thing here. get it, get it, get it right…i’m not holding on and i can say now…holding your head up is hard when you just want to stay on the ground. so stay on the ground. i started feeling bad for myself today. but then i stopped ‘cause i don’t care. i’m dreaming less and sleeping more. but i’ll sell my soul for the dream you stole. so get it, get it, get it right. i’m not holding on to a thing here. get it, get it, get it right…i’m not holding on and i can say now…holding your head up is hard when you just want to stay on the ground. so stay on the ground. about fifty years left of just waiting around. put your heart on your sleeve and watch me pull it down.
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6. flying above everything
now i’m just spacing out again. if i try hard enough i pretend that i’m flying above some trees. and they’re smiling and waving at me. with the clouds on my back i can see all the people down there fast asleep. now i see your house far far below. so i’ll fly down to give you a show. can you see me through your bedroom window? are you waking up your friends to watch with you? can you see me at all?
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7. the more you talk the less i hear
you see me, do i look okay to you? give me your hand, i’ll shake it and shake it again. i’ll smile ‘till my face falls off my head. if it’s good for you, it’s good for me too. what did i say? why do you give a ****? they’re trying to pry in to my brain but i’m gone. i’m running down highways ‘till i see your face. i just need to see you now. and i don’t care about anything else. they’re words are flying over my head. i try and hear, but i’m somewhere else again. you laugh and i smile back to humor you. if it’s good for you, it’s good for me too. what did i say? why do you give a ****? they’re trying to pry in to my brain but i’m gone. i’m running down highways ‘till i see your face. i just need to see you now. and i don’t care about anything else. it’s raining outside. there’s a storm front on my back, trying to keep, trying to keep me away from you. a stranger’s up ahead, holding up a knife. trying to keep, trying to keep me away from you. it’s raining outside. there’s a storm front on my back, trying to keep, trying to keep me away from you. the stars are falling now. breaking up the road. trying to keep, trying to keep me away from you. i’ll scream ‘till bleed. i’ll scream stay away from me. you can’t keep me back, keep me back.
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8. basement ghost singing
now i’m in your basement. i’m laying low to keep out of your way. i hear your footsteps move the floorboards above my head. i have my own routine now. i’m keeping busy in my own way. i’m learning ways to not feel. like i’m down here forever. i hear your footsteps move the floorboards above my head. i hope you know that i’m down here just for you. i sang a song to you through the floor to reach you upstairs. i thought i heard you call out for more…i know that’s crazy. i’m pretty sure that i’m lost again. and won’t get through to you. i won’t get through, i think i won’t get through. i’m gonna close my mouth now. you don’t need more noise in your life. i miss you more than you know. but i know time makes you move on. i hear your footsteps move the flooboards above my head. i hope you know that i’m down here just for you. i sang a song to you through the floor to reach you upstairs. i thought i heard you call out for more…i know that’s crazy. i’m pretty sure that i’m lost again. and won’t get through to you. i won’t get through, i think i won’t get through. the lights are off and i’m lost again.
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9. walking at night, alone
holding my breathe walking at night with you. i get to hear your voice again. if this is a dream, maybe you’ll stay with me. stay with me, please stay with me. this is where we met. we’re back here again. don’t leave me alone. don’t leave me alone. i can’t stand the way the world feel when i’m walking alone. can you please keep talking to me now. tell me all about your new friends. i know you don’t think i can hear you now. but i’m listening, i’m listening. and this is where we met. we’re back here again. don’t leave me alone. don’t leave me alone. i can’t stand the way the world feels when i’m walking alone. love seems like a mess when it won’t let go of me. but when it’s gone i don’t feel…when it’s gone i don’t feel alive. love seems like a mess when it won’t let go of me. but when it’s gone i don’t feel…when it’s gone i don’t feel alive.
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10. i have been right all along
now i’m hiding behind your staircase. trying to tell you something you will never believe. i’ve got a lot to tell you about me. that won’t go over well…well i don’t care. you can’t turn off that you’re dead. you just deal with it. thought i was dreaming. when my heart stopped beating. but i got this feeling…that i was put here for you. i’ve got a secret. and you won’t believe it. but i got this feeling…that i was put here for you. i see the timeline of your whole life, and i admit that i’m not more that the scratch i left behind. but there’s the pull you can’t swim away from that i know you feel. that won’t let you go. . you can’t turn off that you’re dead. you just deal with it. thought i was dreaming. when my heart stopped beating. but i got this feeling…that i was put here for you. i’ve got a secret. and you won’t believe it. but i got this feeling…that i was put here for you. the ghost of what i left behind is dragging me right back next to you. believe me, it’s the truth i swear. i was put here just for you.
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11. [hidden track]

I've let you down, dragged you around, wasted my money, on messing my head up. I've watched you try to figure me out. Take me back cause' you're lonely. Save me, even though we both know that you can't. Won't you save me? I'm gonna die tonight. I swear to god I'm gonna die. Can you save me? Even though we both know that you can't. Won't you save me? I'm gonna die tonight, I swear to god I'm gonna die.

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12. the end of a fraud
i’m leaving again, for the second time around. you better believe that this was all just a joke to me. and as i look down on them. i repeat these words in my head. “they never heard one sound out of my mouth. they never heard one sound.” i saw pretty clear. that when i left you all stayed the same. now i think i believe. that i was never alive in the first place. they never heard one sound out of my mouth. don’t believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die.