pains

Posted on Apr. 6, 2006 at 09:44 - Post Comment

The last couple of days i feel a bit better, i have no fever, but still i am very weak. i guess it is because i dont eat anything. every kind of food causes pains and they are becoming quite intensive. today i've got a piece of cheese and even that small piece made me feel miserable. the problem is that i need go home and lie down but i cant because my boss doesnt let me go, she just doesnt understand how such a young girl may have such strong pains. and i am sitting here, trying to concentrate on my work, thank god and the man  (or a woman) who has invented painkillers. they still cant make my pains go away but at least they can lessen them, so i could do my job. i dont know what has happened to me, but last time i only attract all the problems and hardships. as if someone shows  me that happiness should be punished (i was so happy last weeks and i still am, but it seems that someone or something decided to balance my happiness with some negative emotions and problems). you know i can go through all the trials, except for physical pains. i just cant bear it at all. my sister is an opposite, she can do it with smile, so nobody will understand that she is having some pains. but i am not like her, if i have pains it is the biggest problem because i feel so miserable and helpless and i hate being helpless. anyways enough for now, i will try to do some work.

Life

Posted by abhay on Apr. 7, 2006 at 01:12-Link

is a combination of good and dificult times. You can't have good days all the times. It's the way of God to remind us that we are mere mortals and shouldn't do no good. Have faith in him. :)

Have a wonderful day! :)

for abhay

Posted by lena on Apr. 7, 2006 at 13:23-Link

as far as i remember, abhay, you dont believe in God.
correct me if i'm wrong...
lena
P.S.thank you for all your comments

As

Posted by abhay on Apr. 8, 2006 at 18:49-Link

far as God is concerned, I wasn't talking about myself...but for the other people who still believe in him/her. :)
Btw, nice sarcasm. :p

Have a good day!

And

Posted by abhay on Apr. 8, 2006 at 18:52-Link

you don't have to thank me for small things. :)

I repeat, have a good day!