i dont know...

Posted on Apr. 28, 2006 at 12:43 - Post Comment

last days i dont write much, it is not only  because i am quite busy, but also i dont feel like writing and dont know what to write about. my life is quite the same all the time. there are only few happy minutes every day when i can talk with the man who matters a lot to me, the one i love... my whole lifeis now like waiting all the time... like most people i hate to wait, but there is nothing i can do about it right now.. life can be extremely unfair to people. i cant say it is unfair to me. i have almost all i ever wanted to, but as usual this almost is not enough. the only one thing i want now is to be with him now and here, to care for him and be sure that he is ok. i dont want much but it seems that even this is too much for that moment.

i am not pessimistic,  not at all... i guess i just cant be pessimistic, its my nature :) i am just feeling helpless as if life made the decision not to let me be happy and i cant change its decision. i know everything will be fine in the end, but where this end??? i dont know...

Hummm

Posted by Anonymous on Apr. 29, 2006 at 02:02-Link

It seems to me that the love bug has bitten you for good. ;)..jk

Have a good day, Lena!

waiting...

Posted by Anonymous on May. 2, 2006 at 18:54-Link

i just wanted to make sure you knew that the other anonymous person is not me, my love. =)
we seem to be feeling the same thing as usual. every day is the same. time continues onward while we sit and daydream about being with each other. i look forward to spending those precious few minutes with you daily but am really looking forward as to when we won't have to budget our time together.
i love you, lena. please have a wonderful day.