what i feel

Posted on May. 8, 2006 at 21:29 - Post Comment

it is pretty strange to share your feelings with the blog when there is areal person you want to share it with. but since i dont have a chance to share them with this real person i do share them with my blog.

1. feel really tired and exhausted today, was having a really hard day

2. couldnt sleep well last night because of pains, strange but i have no  idea what was the reason for them - i didnt eat anything from the "black" list.

3. cut my finger which is not really bad but still not very good either...

4. had a very difficult conversation with my mom... which makes me feel guilty even when there is not my fault ... she just cant accept things as they are and that is a problem because things are exactly as they are - i hope you understand what i mean... even when you dont, it is not a problem, at least not your problem...

5. have too much in my head and t is so difficult because i cant concentrate on anything

6. worry too much, may be i should stop worrying and life would be more easy...

7. hate weekends, is it normal?????

8. miss him a lot (i think that is normal!!!)

9. want to sleep but cant ( and that is for sure not normal :))

10. and i am hungry, but cant eat because i am afraid to get pains again...

that is all i am feeling right now, may be not all, but pretty much, and this all together makes me want to cry, and i havent cried for a couple of months already...

anyways, no matter how i feel... i hope you all are having good time :)

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Posted by mothtoaflame on May. 9, 2006 at 12:42-Link

Honey, so sorry you feel like you can't talk to this person, and that you are struggling right now. Chin up chick!!

Thinking of you and sending you lots of positive energy.

Karen. Xxxxxx

what i feel...

Posted by Anonymous on May. 15, 2006 at 18:49-Link

i also haven't cried in so long and have decided to do something about it. i think we all need to release our frustrations every now and then somehow. living has been so difficult for us these past few months. as long as we keep our love strong i think we can overcome whatever is bothering us.
i miss you terribly and hope things improve for you, my love. never forget... i love you, lena.