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So I broke things off with Gabe sort of. I was feeling a little to overwhelmed about stuff and I knew I needed to be honest with him about my feelings for Steve. It was a lot harder than I thought because I am attracted to him and I do like him. But I don't see anything serious with him and too be honest I see alot of my ex in him. To many things remind me of him. Me and him walked around the city and talked after work yesterday and I just had such a hard time getting it out. He seemed confused and little pissed off but when I left he kinda got bitter. He starting texting me things like "why didn't you choose me?" and "nice guys finish last". And that he felt like I gave him the "it's me, not you" speech and was really bitter. So basically I had to get real with him and tell him the truth. I don't really see a future for me and him. I felt more like he just wanted to get in my pants and as a girl we all know that feeling. I feel like he really did like me but Gabe just pretty stuck in his ways. He seems to have certain routines for things. And he told me he doesn't change for people(sounds a lot like Benny). And then there is Steve....need I say more. Trust me I don't trust him completely...that's something you earn...but I know that he is just what I need. He always tells he may be young but he knows how to treat a girl. Steve is like two years younger than me...ha! I have always dated older guys..figures the young one gets me. He told me that he is going to shock the sh*it outta me...we'll see about that. It's weird though because I don't feel insecure with him or any kind of feelings I felt with Benny. It's so different. I just have to take my time. That's enough guy talk. I have such bad allergies right now and a cold on top of that...ew! I can't breath and I feel like I could cough up a lung. Note to self STOP smoking! Work sucks...eh. But nothing really new to write about...pretty boring today! Take Care

10:06 AM - Apr. 26, 2006 - post comment

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