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Still swimming with the sharks, and I only have one leg left. I still haven't sold the house and I'm starting to think it will never sell. I decided to list it in the papers to rent and I have quite a few responses but so far nobody has signed a lease. I did have a guy come look at it today that seemed impressed so I'm hoping he'll rent it. He seemed nice and responsible and he had a good job so I wouldn't have to worry about getting the rent. I am so behind in all of my bills. If I don't send the mortgage company 1500 by the end of this month they are going to start foreclosure then I won't have to worry about renting anything. This sucks. I just want to be stable again. I was so stupid jumping into this. I love the cabin though, i'm really hoping things will work out so that I can keep it. I'm pretty sure that's not going to happen.

My love life is still pretty much nill. I haven't had sex in almost two years. MY GOD. I really don't miss it all that much though. I'm pretty content being on my own. Love will find me when it feels like it. I have a little bit of a crush on the manager of the Long View. He's derranged but I think that's why I like him. oy. He's also married and completely off limits, but it's nice to get the looks sometimes. Jason finally got back in touch with me, it's been like two weeks. i was starting to get worried about him. He says he's okay but he's been whoring, drinking and smoking even more than before and I can tell that he's really down. I wish we lived closer so I could help more. I'm am VERY not in love with Bar anymore. It was weird. One day I was talking to him and I just snapped. I was repulsed by him...since then I haven't even had a spasm of feeling for him which makes my life a lot less complicated.

The foreign students from the Long View have gone home all except for Alex and Sebi. Zuzi and Paul when home, they lived in Slovakia. They were such a sweet couple. They never had a bad word about anyone. Iryna was from Bella Ruse and she was nice but very quiet. I didn't really get a chance to know her because we didn't work together a lot. Alex and Sebi come from Romania. They are both funny. Sebi doesn't speak much, but he's funny in a subtle way. Alex is much more outspoken and he's hot. He was painting the lodge and he wasn't wearing a shirt. I couldn't keep my eyes of from him..his back was so muscled and tan...hmm...maybe I miss sex more than I thought. lol. They are going back soon though. Sigh.

After Columbus day the long view pretty much closes down so if this corrections thing doesn't work out I have to start looking for a new job. I hate job searching. it sucks.

My brother is really starting to worry me he drinks pretty much constantly now and he misses work a lot. I think the only reason he hasn't lost his job is because of dad. He really has a problem but I know that you can't force them to change..i'm hoping he's smart enough to realize he needs help.

12:19 AM - Sep. 20, 2007 - post comment