Feb. 27, 2006 - my greatest fear
I finally figured that i fear it more than anything; more than needles, more than bees, more than pain, more than work (lol), more than death, more than anything...
I almost don't want to say. I'm not embarassed or anything, it is a rational fear. I'm just afraid that if I admit it to the world, or at least to all the people who read my blog, I'll jinx myself and it will, i don't know, come true.
So here it is, my greatest fear; the fear of being alone or left out. I need other people in my life, i can't stand it when people do things without me, keep secrets from me or leave me out of things. When we do things with partners I actually freak out the night before we split into groups. I'm always afraid I'll be the odd woman out, that i won't have a partner. I'm so afraid that I will be alone the rest of my life after high school and I don't want to be.
~Rai Thompson~
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