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june 2

ok, so i met with my counsellor yesterday.  she is older than my last counsellor, but she seems nice.  she seems like someone i can talk to... she was asking me a bunch of questions tho.  i gave her permission to talk to Ashley so that i wouldnt have to explain everything all over again.  well, i sighned 2 things, 1 so she could call Ashley and the other so that she could talk to her about me.  weird.  i mean, you figure if you gave permission for someone to call you would have permission to talk right?  oh well.

I have another appointment on wednesday so hopefully she will have read my journals and she will have an idea of what is going on.  hopefully she doesnt spazz when she reads some of them, because some of them, ok well a lot of them, talk about suicide.

she asked if i wanted my mom to come to some sessions, i told her when i was a little more comfortable i would because i dont want to be uncomfortable with her and then uncomfortable because my mom is there...

she also asked how she could get me to be more comfortable in our sessions, i guess because i was really tense.  i told her i needed to be able to play with my stress toys, she said it was fine.  then she caught me looking around and asked if she needed to re-arrange, but i didnt want her other clients to feel uncomfortable so i said no.  plus its not like she could have rearranged a lot because the room is fairly small and she has to fit a bunch of stuff in it.

i still miss my dad and his family.  maybe i should just let go of him for a while while i get better.  but the problem with that is that he is part of the problem, so i need him to get better.

i cut last night.  and skipped math today, but that isnt a biggie becasuse we are just doing tiling and rotation and transitions and stuff like that... stuff i learned in gr. 4.  and was late for business, but i handed in my assign.  POOF wasnt at school today, i think her daughter is still really sick.  that sucks.  i was supposed to hand in my ISU for tech, but since she isnt here i guess i will have to hand it in on monday.  i hope she doesnt take late marks, i mean, it was ready on the due date, she just wasnt here.

ttyl

 - randii - -_-