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bubblepop

Alright, I told pretty much anyone who was close to em to back off and let me do what I was cuz that's the only way I can deal right now.  And my tech teacher said it was fine, that when I was ready to talk again, I could go see her/MSN her.  My counsellor, however, didnt like it.  She still wants to meet her every week. 

Anyhow, my tech teacher got these new CD sound loops, for a program called ACID, and there was bubblepop packing stuff in it.  She said I could have it, and maybe it would stop me from my problem.  (see "My nasty little habit" for info on this).  It's kinda working... at least, better than any others. 

Oh, and today, there was this assembly thing for Remebrance day, and they couldnt get the video to work. So I was running around like a crazy person trying to fix it, and I was supposed to check up on the stage and then run back to the sound/lighting booth.  But the drama teacher, who didnt know I was supposed to be doing this, yelled at me and made me stay on stage.  She had to go do something, so I took the back way off stage while I had the chance.  I then went to tell my teacher that the video was fine, and I would see her later. (There isnt enough space for the people who need to be in the booth, let alone extra's).  I had to go to the bathroom, and when I got there, I cut my arm.  It was pretty deep, but not really really deep.  After I was finished, I got physically sick.  I feel so disgusting.

  Anyway, I went to my business class, and was fine, but I didnt want to go to math, so I saw the counsellor and told her I needed a quiet space.  She let me, which was nice.  When I was done, I told her that I couldnt go to math (I was supposed to write a test and had already cut, I didnt want to have any more stress).  Then, she asked me questions, and I didnt really wanna answer, so I said I wnated to go talk to my trusted teacher, and she said that was OK.  I'm happy about that because I dont know what woulda happened if she didnt.

 Well, that's all I guess.  So post if you have any comments, or whatever.  I really just write these for me.  ttyl

- Randii -

hey...

{ 6:44 PM, Nov. 12, 2005 } { Posted by 4everlostnalone }

sounds like the music progie helps a lil bit. i think thats a pretty good way for u to channel ur energies. kinda weird one depressed person talking to another depressed one like this. we both seem to be fairly intelligent. iono.. maybe we just like to stay depressed even tho we try and ask for help? if u need any more sound progries let me know. i'm not a musical program expert but i do love to collect and mess around with them.
thinking of u...
C.