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Rough night / day

K, I'm at my Dad's now.  Long ass bus ride though.  (5 hours including waiting time).  At least I got 1 hour sleep out of it though. :)

Today was a pretty rough day.  It wasn't even it's own day seeing as i didn't get sleep last night.  Basically just hung out in the tekk room today.

I gave my tekk teacher the sleeping pills I was taking so I wouldn't OD on them again.  She kinda gave me heck for that (heck for OD-ing).  And for not going to the hospital about it. 

OK, just so you know Ms. Flood, one of the reasons I didn't go (to the hospital)was because I didn't have transportation there.  And if you had shown up at my house, i prolly would have argued, but eventually have gone.  Oh well.  But the other was because I was scared and didn't want to go for fear of being judged and having my stomach pumped.  I don't imagine that is a great feeling.  Also, I didn't want to not be able to go to my Dad's this weekend.  Seeing as I have been looking forward to it for quite some time.  And if he found out what I have been doing... I don't know what he would do, But I am quite sure that he would be mad and disappointed and all those other wonderful things that parents feel when their child has acted in a way they dis-approove of.

I am not sure what I am going to do on Monday.  I have a dr. app't in the morning so I can get into the hospital, but unsure of how I am going to keep up with work while I am there and how long I will be there.

Also unsure of how I will be judged.  I hate it when people assume.  As you spell it you make an :"ass" out of "u" and "me".  "assume".

Credit to Ms Flood for that one.

Anyways, don't wanna write anymore.  So I'm off to play games and chat for a while.  ttyl

 - Randii -