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january 31, 2006

hey all.  i have had a rough little while since my dad called the cops on me to take me to the hospital.

it isnt his fault, he did believe me to be in danger of myself, however, i feel, that this has strained our already strained relationship and that we may never recover from it, this scares me. as im sure that it would scare most people no matter what age.

he also said that i am not to visit them, meaning that i no longer get to see my little sister or the new baby sibling.  this upsets me a great deal.  and even tho it has been 27 days, i feel that, seeing as my little sister was my motive to stop cutting that i want to cut again.

this may not make sense to some people, and that is fine.  but those of you who know me, please understand that i dont want to be assured that everything is going to be ok. because at this time, where i dont get to see the thing that i am getting better for, i feel like i have lost all hope.

so, now that i am nice and upset., im going to go surf the net. yay.

laterz

 - Randii -