so i'm bored breathless. no kidding. i mean this seriously sucks. and spring break hasn't even started yet. it doesn't start till tomorrow and i'm sooooo bored. and i'm really tired. but who wants to spend spring break sleeping. NOT ME! i want fun. i want to go to a party or something. its been awhile since i've gotten good and drunk. and...i mean...i dont want to do it for the wrong reasons. i just...want to get drunk. i want to go to a party. i want to actually go to alex's. but...i can't do that. cause we're not talking. cause he lied. and i'm finding it hard to forgive him even though i want to because i miss him. i miss the times we've had. i miss leslie too. i called her earlier. she said she'd call back but she hasn't. whatever. i guess i dont need them. i miss them though. a helluva lot. i miss me and daniel going to alex's where he was having a big get together. i miss the lake during summertime. [[haha i just put in mae - summertime.]] yea. those were the good days. the fun days. the days i miss. and i mean...i'll be graduating..and then that's it. that's it that's all.

i told my mum today that i'm going to marry mike one day. and i told her i was gonna move in with him one day. she doesn't think it's right. but i dont care. i want to. and its not her decision...its mine.

he stayed the night last night. my rents let him. and they let him sleep with me. which was cool. even though it was uncomfortable because i have a small bed. it was fine. i didnt' get a lot of sleep. neither did he. but..lol..that's ok too. as long as we were together all night. that was fine. i woke up..and he was there. and that was...i mean...it felt amazing. for him to be there when i woke up. wow.

i want to spend the rest of my life with him.

and i'm not even kidding. i love him.

but..i'm going. he should be here any minute.

later.