i think sometimes that i think too much. and that i worry about things too much.

i hate when i'm lying in bed at night and i'm super tired but very comfortable...then i have an itch. and i scratch it..and then that itch becomes another. then its really difficult to get comfortable again. then i'm awake...and thinking about everything. it happens to me a lot. and it causes me to lose sleep. which causes me to not sleep well when i get sleep. which then causes me to be super tired the next day. terrible.

so...i've been taking birth control for almost 2 weeks now...and i've noticed that its given me extra acne. which sucks. cause i never had bad acne...or visible acne really. and then this happens. i hate it. it makes me feel ugly and ashamed of my face.

...ok..i was just thinking..lol. yesterday before i went to mike's i was thinking "man, i hope he doesn't want sex..because i'm not feeling it right now" well...i thought it was a pretty funny thought to be thinking. anyways..i got to his house and luckily and apparently he sensed it and didnt try. a few hours later we were on the floor playing with the dog...and i looked at him and was thinking "wow...i want him...right now" i just wanted to jump on top of him and start making out with him. and i was just rethinking all of that just now and i realized...i love being that close to him. i love kissing him and being intimate with him. its incredible. and i love him so much. needless to say, when the dog finally gave up and went to sleep, he was lying on the floor and i went up to him and started making out with him. it all worked out for the best. :)

just thought i'd share that.

i'm going though. i have stuff i want to do now that i've sort of figured photoshop out.