so, i got caught cheating awhile back in french...and of course got a zero. well..i figured...hey..it's my first time ever cheating..that should tell me to never do it again. so. ok. i let it go. well..she sent a note to my parents. WONDERFUL! not really. my dad wanted to go on and on ...my mum stopped him. *note to self: thank her for that* gaa. but he has been nagging me on and on. sometimes i feel bad though for yelling at him. i'm supposed to sit back and take it and i snap back. i don't know why. it's like the linkin park song. breakin the habit. "i don't know what's worth fighting for, or why i have to scream. i don't know why i instigate and say what i don't mean." yea..that's me. in a nutshell. i think i have anger problems. hopefully i'll be better one day. maybe when i move out. start going to college. being on my own. sort of. yea.

but..i'm gonna go. i uh. dont' know why. i just feel the need to stop writing.

i'm sorta sad (big surprise). 2 out of 3 nights..i had a dream about cheating on david. the first night was with chase. the second was chase and matt. i was like...wtf. i mean...last night. i almost did cheat on him. but i stopped myself. b/c i don't want to hurt him. b/c i love him. and i never want to hurt him. it was wrong of me to even allow the thought to pop into my head. wtf. but. yea. that's over.

bye.