some people i just hate. i mean. i just despise people. sometimes. and sometimes i just want to slit my own wrists. again. i just...like right now...i want to cut. and i might.this is sad...earlier..i was gonna cut..i got a blade out...and i had a burst of A.D.D. and uh..never cut. and when i saw my razor again...i was like..wtf..i want to cut.it's horrible. it really is. an addiction like this. and i'm not satisfied till i see blood. and 9 times outta 10 it has to be more than one cut. i want my old razors back. they cut easier. but when you have a duller blade...it sucks.AAAAHHHHH! i'm getting infuriated. with the razor i have i can't get any blood. it's too dull..too small....i'm gonna go insane.will a knife work? i'd probably be scared to use a knife. but...you use whatever you can. so. i just want to bleed. i want my razors back.

so...i had a massive case of A.D.D. and quit writing for like 2 hours. so this has been sitting here for 2 hours.oh yes it has. i uh..tried to cut. 3 times. wouldn't bleed. razor was too dull. didn't go get the knife. i instant messaged chris. he just pissed me off more. i talked to david. he made me feel bad and made me throw the razor away. so i did.

i don't feel like writing anymore.

plus david is gonna call soon.

so i need to get offline.

g'nite.