i hate leaving. because the time period between visits is too long.

a day?

yes...normally. but that's too long. oh what i would give to stay forever with him.

i cant stand being apart from him.

it kills me inside.

but do you think...if we were together all the time..that we'd get sick of each other?

i dont.

i dont think we could get sick of each other. not for anything.

every day with him

my love grows stronger than before.

its amazing.

i hope this continues. cause i'd be lost without him.

maybe...more than lost.

he gives me a reason to open my eyes every morning.

without him...i'd have the want to sleep forever.

i'd have the want to kill my arms with writing of blood.

with him...i dont have those wants.

i mean..yes..i think of cutting every now and then.

but hey..i did it for a year straight.

it's not that easy to just...look over.

but...with mike..it's easier to say no.

he's not like all the rest.

he's better.

he treats me...like a d*mn princess.

how i dont feel i deserve.

but...he thinks i deserve it.

gosh i love him.

words can't describe.

"how does it feel to know you're everything i need?

the butterflies in my stomach they could bring me to my knees.

how does it feel to know you're everything i want?"

when i think of him..i think of that song.

i'm out.

love love love to the maxcore.